For something happy 1st,

i went to my cousin place at tiong bahru for house warming. apparently his new wife is very friendly, we click rather easily... nice couple of them bah... although i dun talk to my cousin as often... The visit was short and sweet. Met and talk a bit... My family always turn up to be the earliest for this type of hse warming... everytime will go ard 10am.. coz my dad like it early. so bo bian have to wake up early to go lah...

Alright, this that are gd are gone. i shall move on towards some things that affects a bit over on me. OK, i receive an sms today or rather yesterday night. then i went to check out the information this morning. What i have to say was i was stunned and hurt. I guess i am simply too greedy... take up offers that are too gd to be true. I begged for something to be shared with me up front, n now i can't face it. alright watever i say , juz treat it as bullshit, i dun mind de, do let me know straight when i start bulleting. it hurt so much to know that only now... it hurt my heart that i am just a test item. i will reflect n bloody shut my damn mouth up from now onwards. Sorry for bringing so much trouble and unhappiness to u. Pls let me cool a while, i dun think i have the face to talk to u at this moment and help u with your problem.

I cried so much after reading it before going to my cousin's place. my eyes was ultra swollen where i have to put eyemo and makeup to cover it. My mum n bro ask me wat happen, n immediately they thought that i was watching the korean drama and sobbing of it. alright, i was not... it is just some emotional breakdown that i am having... Let it be, only when i think of a better solution would i act upon it. Meanwhile i would do my reflection and see what i can change of myself.