really tired

i felt really tired down the beggining of the works that has to be done...
y is everyone so clever.

i can't even complete a tutorial... haiz... trying so hard...

there is quite alot that offers to really help us.

i am really weak in maths and physics.

i am really no clue how come i am in this course men...

haiz... skip class again today... try the online assessment... going to skool in another 1 hour time...

i felt extremely down yesterday...

happen that i could finally talk to wing on the phone... know her feeling and such... at least she did share with me...

anyway... my parents was like nagging behind me when i chatting on the phone with wing...

in fact for those who know me real well will know that i very seldom call others de...

coz my parents will keep on nag at me when i am on the phone...

so i was telling them if the bills is expensive i will pay... then kana another round of quarreling lah...

i told them i oso seldom use phone at home... when wing is bored then she call me this once and that is wat fren was for mah... y can;t i juz chat( anyway the duration was abt 1hr)

they say y can;t i say the main pt and cut short the conversation... i was y am i restricting myself to that... last time in primary school i had the same problem when i chat with hui yee... then now is like poly or even in uni le... still care so much meh... tired le

then when they can't win me... guess wat they say that really hurts me

" U uni student, can't say win u..." and " Sorry to u, is all b'coz we poor mah, that y scared u cultivate habit of calling others to chit chat. so dun wan u to talk on phone"

i was like -_-...

wat uni student big deal meh... i felt so much stress in skool le, then i am so much heavily in debt. i am not clever lah.. so makes it even tougher... i love my family... it is juz that wat they say can simply hurt so much... n i didn't mean to hurt them too...

so wat we are not rich... i juz wish that we live happily that is all. i dun need to make everyone so burden by all these... everytime is the money topic that bring my parents the inferior feeling of themselves unable to provide more and sensitive in the money department issue... when they say that i felt so unfilial lah... not that i bother on that cash matter. but i guess i know how they feel loh...

then being hurt already... i went into my room to sob abit. while my bro was playing computer. then i try to talk to him abt it, he blame me that coz of me furthering my studies i had indeed burden on him.. he have to pay his own skool fee... he felt he was so unfortunate in this family...

like others: always the elder sacrifice for the younger siblings. but now he sacrificing coz i am studyin...

do u really think i want to study uni? i not sure myself... to me is juz additional burden to my family and myself... ( i am heavily in debt) while i could simply stay out and work...

Nightmare25-08-06

i had in fact slept well in the night. then at ard 8am. i woke up and went to the toilet.
then i went back to slp

dunno y i dream of this little green snake running ard my house.
my bro was not scared of it... i was extremely afraid... i dun even know how it appear in my house... and it was in my room at first. right underneath my bed...
i try to ask my ma to call the hotline to catch pest and such...
it was then that i realise i dunno the number... i ask her to call 100 to ask or 111(which is obviously wrong) end up i dunno which number and she happily in the dream neber call and say lets wait until the nxt day when everyone is working then call. and which she switch off the lights of my room. ( anyway, in dreams it doesn;t seem logical to me) yeah... then i sense movement on my bed... then i was telling my ma... the snakes is turning bigger and had advance onto my bed... i told i dun wan that bed anymore... with the snakes being on there.... after sometime then realise the thing on my bed fidgeting was my brother taking a nap... maybe dun even know there was snakes. as usual i shouted to him... then he seems to find it frustrating and went off the room to take a bath.

i mean how could i slp properly with the snakes in the house that was how i thought in the dream... it was then that the snakes ran from my room to the dining room where i was hiding... the snakes speed was ultra fast lah... then my brother came out from bath, took a stick to itimidate the snakes while trying to trap the snakes. but to no avail.. it ran from behind my ma's sewing machine to the cupboard at the side.... i was still saying to my brother. couldn't u trap the snake with a glass bottle... i turn to ask my mother.

it was then the snake ran towards me and bitten me...

then i was, i woke up... panting like xiao and cried... scared the hell out of me... and it was only 9am... which the whole snake incident that is in my dream took abt 1 hr... yah... maybe i was too scared or wat... when i woke up, my fingers will ultra cramp together.

then i went to see my handphone. received a sms from my uni fren, actually yesterday she had send me an sms to say whether we should drop the year 2 mod(probability) that we are taking together. actually i dun really wish to drop it cause... u drop now... nxt semester u still have to face it... so i told her i want to continue and i ask her y she suddenly thought of dropping. is the senior told her so or wat... she slept at the time i msg her.

so in the morining received this information that. it was an advice from the prof of the probability. this mod is really a will die subject, unless work extremely hard...

it was a bit demoralising yet still the truth... but i am going to hold my ground... sry leehuan, i am still going to take this... coz no matter wat. we still have to face it... although i still do not have the basic... but i will try my best to do it de... i mean if i failed this mod... then i retake again with the rest bah...

da jia muz JIA YOU from here loh...

n one thing to say... y can't the world elimate snakes... ah.... i guess during the daytime seen too much of the advertisement on the new movie... "snakes on a plane"

idiot de leh... that time anarconda i also have serious nightmare... GOSH... we are enemies!!! producers pls stop producing this kind of shows le...

Udate of remaining of last week

on friday, as i accompany leehuan to maintance her slow lappy. i walk over to the IT store area where of course sold the electronics items. hmmm... saw a printer that includes function like, print, copy, scan and print photos with card reader. something along that line for only a price of $98 bucks.
After a few mins of decision, i bought the printer. Wasn't it fast?
i didn't even call back to ask for decision... i juz stood there thinking if i need it. ALright home Canon printer was abt 3 years old and it can configure with current desktop. so i finally gotten a new brother 3-1 printer. haha... very much recommended it to my close buddy gang...

gd things muz share share de... anyway the printer thingy was quite heavy, so sorry carol and eliz can't simply help u buy and cart back... unless i do it one by one... yeah, aside from that... the cd selling there are also cheaper than outside... before i thought that 50cd sold at $17 is cheap, then i went to NTU i saw $15.80 ( my action too fast, bought 100cd) so on friday i saw it was only $14.25( even cheaper... -_-`too bad have alot le) yah... so i believe NUS might sell cheaper products compared to outside...

then juz yesterday sunday... went out with sec skl gang... as usual we ate gd things... went to california pizza kitchen... the food there was OK. the service level better than pizza hut. alright gd place to chit chat and chill. anyway after lunch, went to zara to shop for clothes... ah.. i budgeting so can't buy... seen a black sling bag with seashells on it... WOOhoo.. not bad... but it was quite ex... should be $35 or $50+. can;t rvm... its very simple design... yah but ex...we are buying for the brand... alright... ah niao bought baby clothes for her nephew... wahaha... she have to choose within a few selection... anyway as i commented... the 1st baby that belongs among the 6 of us would be so so fortunate. so many gan ma ard... wahaha... if we are going to do so...

baby items are so cute.... love it... anyone want to give birth, then let me play with the baby?
haha...

yah after that, we went to best denki... carol bought a MP3... it was abt $109. hmm... my opinion was that i prefer the one in orange lah... looking more hip... which coz $99. anyway u tend to choose wat u like...

alright after that i went to buy KFC home for the family.

the bunch of us took 111 back. and when we was on bus. we saw or i saw 1st sight of may and amanda... yeah their makeup was rather thick from my view lah... anyway oso none of my business. yeah... the grp of us came up with lamb idea to msg the 2 gals lah... like i predict what u wear today ... end up we dun dare to send... sound a bit tu... haha..

very much ended my week... then at night was national day rally. i think... i fell asleeep then woke up to play maple story...

kind of addicted to it le... OH TIAN ah!!!!

Poly class outing

HA.. finally managed to organise a POly CLass Outing held today(18.08.06)

we had postponed it so many times that sometime i feel sad...

but thanks for those who attend and their support.

haha... the few of us( zhiwei, terence, hong quan, valerie, kristie, lowie and me ) was there for a Kbox buffet...

weiling and giap came in to sit in for a while and chat before they return home for other stuff.

gd that they came along... hey i appreciate the effort!

hmmm... anyway during the session, we change so much room lah... so we ended up with an additional hour of singing k

thank you zhiwei, so clever to call the manager to get this offer. wahaha

from room 37, 23(supposingly but someone took it),

25(flooding with water), 82(too small), 85 (finally!)

i had some great time singing... yeah... i think i sang a lot of songs... and of course i ate plenty of food.

the price was $24 together with singing and buffet... gd entertainment apart from the several changing of rooms.

the waiter was still polite after all lah...

hope everyone enjoy it lah... alright take care and have a gd rest...

i want to go slp le... tml got lesson at 10am... electrical engineering!!! GOSH... i freak...

~~~~Nitez~~~~

first week in NUS

TOTALLY CLUELESS!!!
TOTALLY HOPELESS!!!
TOTALLY HELPLESS!!!

for the past 3 days IN NUS. i might say i had difficulty coping.
in the case of mentally changes and the term course work, things talk in lectures.
i dun even know a single thing. i felt so helpless and rejected.
more than a few times i will question myself y i am doing this for.
No one is giving me the stress. but i juz felt lost!!!

i think i really had to work so hard... since i had already make the move. i can't lose out... at least most i could do is simply juz pass the exam.

WHO told me Uni won't failed easily??? i would like to question the person??? ITs tough with ultra packed schedule.

i am feeling my brain dead... it is not functioning as it should be... PLS give me back my BRain~~~

juz hope everything will be alright>>>

Which dog type are u? 狗狗占卜

it was kind of cute to play with it...

took it from ziwei de blog... so u may try too. shall put the link below
http://home.kimo.com.tw/ewormeworm/city/fate/02/dog.htm

　　　
土佐犬日本犬類，認真、誠實，但非常頑固，敏捷的判斷力，和機警的行動力是NO.1，不服輸是你的優點也是缺點。

基本性格你是活潑又充滿活力的，大膽又直接的個性，所以，只要是想做的事，都會去完成；敏捷的判斷力是十二犬種中最優越的，再加上好奇心強，想知道的事一定會徹底調查，直到解開謎團，不服輸的個性讓你的鬥志非常旺盛，一旦說出口的事，一定要做到，若有人來阻止，一定會給予反擊，如果因此而遭人批評的話，你也不會介意，反而會愈挫愈勇，鬥志愈來愈強，但土佐犬最大的缺點便是不會做人，脾氣暴躁，常常發脾氣，事後才又後悔不已

適合的類型能帶領調皮的你的只有狼犬型的人，若能真心的接受對方的建言的話，你們就不會產生對立的情況，也可以真正的討論一些問題，對事物有敏銳觀點的吉娃娃最適合作你的下屬，你也會喜歡他的自尊心強的部份，另一方面，要交朋友的話，則可以選擇對朋友有義氣的柴犬，即使不常連絡，當你遇見困難時，他一定會助你一臂之力的，會是你的最佳伙伴。


不適合的類型最不合的就是多話的博美狗，當他知道你的秘密之後，就會到處跟別人說，也許是太率直了，但這點卻是你所無法理解的。



duno why the chinese word... juz couldn't appear... 　anyway those who know me. can see my type with my detail on the blog... juz for fun

Dummy Guide to spike a ball

1. Start your approach when the ball is at the top of the flight arc.
2. The arm swing will transfer your weight forward and up, producing a higher jump.

3. When your approach is the same each time, deciding to dink or slam is a last-minute decision.

The biggest difference between big spike and a soft spike is how hard you hit it. The harder you hit it, the lower on the ball you want to be and always snap that wrist.

volleyball urge is back... miss it

school reopens on 14aug

OH MY... i am starting school on MONDAY...

Hope everything will be alright!!!

~~~~~Wish all undergrad a gd year ahead~~~~~

bleah s\`~`/s

reunion

had went back to meet up with the 2 dajie at panalpina. seen some ex-colleague there too.

i think they are extremely short-handed lah... sorry can;t help much. can't possibly enter the building and work for free.

then kristie ask me to organise a poly class reunion session.

actual fact i dun really ON to do this thing. coz mainly the reason is:
1. all got different schedule.
2. can;t possibly gather all the people( which is depressing to the one organising)

i had re-scheduled so many times that i am so fully pissed off. simply can;t be like. setting a day and everyone could be there to share some moments together.

i guess i might be a favor over to my sec gang bah...

we usual settle the days to meet rather fast.

dunno y it was simply a great fuss to gather my poly group...

sorry if i say something that might affect u all.

juz feel a bit depressed with the constant of postponing.

changin Blog skin

i had been thinking of changing the BLog Skin for so long.

Maybe i am too lazy to make changes or WAt...

until rachel told me how to do the tagboard.

That strikes off me doing the BLog Skins thingy.

thanks for the lady who had done this whole skin. it is filled with colors.

i think most ppl dunno. i like stuff with butterfly and seashells. haha

din say to other ppl lah.. wahaha...

then recently watchin youtube as usual too

at least one week holisday for me would spend on something i like...

bought one book on Japanese with bahasa Malaysia in it too. so i could learnt 2 types of language together.

ha, i am greedy.

anyway i am the type with 3 min hot...

will neglect it soon.

alright, i go bathe and maybe visit the library now... i guess i was fined again for late returning...

Konba Wa...

went to NUS for the engin day... much to say was that the event was rather boring...
i muz admit i am over anti-social. i did not dare to speak up...

yeah maybe JC seems like a much superior class???

i dunno and dun wish to think so much

but i would like to share this wonderful news to those who know me.

my course in NUS will be shorten to 3 years instead of 4 years.

hooray... 1 year less to pay for the huge expenses.

after some talk with the prof, he already help us taken a guide for us.

a friend of mine and me would straight away jump to semester 3.

yeah i think it would be quite tough lah... as the other prof had said to us.

english and maths muz be strong. our course in NUS is cater to 'A' Level students

thus u 2 had to work very hard for your stay in uni.

and there goes our 20 Unrestricted modules . as we did a speed up.

we are like very much takin the core modules lah...

NO IAP, NO OIAP, NO VIAP, NO overseas exchange...

yeah... alot of opportunity is taken away.

but i am still happy that it was shorten to 3 years,,, wahaha....

sister can;t wait to meet up with u all to share this news to u...

wing, i post the msg in here to share my happiness with u lah...

coz we dun get to meet up until u r back... and hor where is your pics ah???

neber send and update us???

alright everyone take care...

Past Vs Present at Fairfield

this yearly event was what i was always looking out for.

it is when all the volleyballers could meet up again & simply enjoy the sports

i like the time when we could play as team. the feeling is always right. we dun even feel weird... juz simply play.

some minor things happen that might have spoiled the mood

the clever present coach pampered his teams that he last min send off his gals team out for friendly.

heard that it was b'coz we are holding the match at outdoor court
WHAT the ....!!!!! we all used to play outdoor, y can;t they try outdoor too...
we will like dDDDDDDDDDIaooooooo.....
it should be very well consider walkover... and frankly speaking voucher would be ours then.
anyway. out of no choice. the gals team ended up competiting with the all guys team.

it was fun, but i guess we are juz plain rusty le bah... we had really red bump on all our hands. mainly of us was like""" OucH!!!! hurt like hell...

it was itchy and painful after playing for abt 3 matches.

sorry that i went off early and did not dine with u all that night

was really feeling super tired. spliting headache... then i haven eaten since the night before.
basically, i was too hungry thus... i went off earli lah

ANyway I still VolleyBall.... heheee