cowardism

i know i promise to give it a try.

but i am feeling so uneasy that i keep on doubting on myself.

created so much trouble for everyone. i can;t stop doing that.

i hate myself with the indecisive thinking. how could i escape out of this indecisiveness n cowardism.

most of the time w/o actual force, i will normally chicken out of situation.

like the time went to work in kfc, i went in alone and left after 3days. ( no frenz, pessimistic, runaway attitude)

how coward r u then? do u always runaway when difficulties arises?

i guess i m one of it bah... everytime other ppl that r courageous enough to attempt diff challenges. i somehow admire them and would like to try it.

it was like there was once my IS class fren bring me to donate blood. at first i thought that was something cool and beneficial. yet when i reach there, i chill out of it again.

what was the reason i gave to myself.
{i am too fat, muz take weight measurement, wat if got high blood pressure}

oh my wat idiot excuses i am trying to cover up for myself.

like my sec vball moto" excuses are for loser"
Am i one of it then? sure does...

sorry being very down now adays.

i let down u wing wing. sry =(